Here’s a peek of the lettering piece I finished a few days ago. I’m happy that the light cream color of the paper came out in the scan. Also, I had accidentally dropped a loaded brush on it when I had literally just finished it, so I had to edit it out digitally. Other than that, everything is done by hand! I’ll be posting the whole piece next week when it comes out on Thinkie Tank.
1. I don’t recommend watching Mood Indigo in the morning.
2. All the holidays happening every other workday has screwed up my routine and my momentum. The long weekend just started and all I can think about is all the sideline work I have to get done by next week.
3. And lastly, a little reminder from Satsuki Shibuya.
Sometimes I feel myself falling into the trap of stressing over making things to get other people’s validation, just so I can feel I’m getting somewhere or that my work is something significant. The thing is I guess I was never one who was super comfortable with making stuff for no reason or purpose, wala lang in Filipino, and so sometimes when I feel that my work doesn’t connect with other people, it kind of bothers me. It’s not that I don’t enjoy working on stuff for fun, because I do, but it’s not my main goal because after a while it feels indulgent for me. One of my success indicators with my work–design or illustration or crafts–is when I get to connect with other people with what I make, even just on a very basic level. I’m happy when I work on things I personally like, but I’m happier when other people get to share in it, too, or if they find my work useful.
On a slightly different note, I think being around creative people all the time is affecting how I work also, because sometimes I get a bit too conscious of their reaction to the things I come up with. Like, if I feel that the people I admire or if my friends don’t pay attention to my work, it gets to me sometimes. And I need to snap out of it! Because I don’t want my work to be highly dependent on that kind of attention. I need to stop defining my own standards by other people’s standards. I’ve been thinking about why this is affecting me now, when I used to not care about it before. I guess I feel that I’ve worked pretty hard to get to where I am now, and I value it so much I get scared sometimes thinking of whether this is going to be something sustainable or not. I guess I need to realign my perspective and work towards making good stuff, not necessarily popular stuff. The right people will come, they say, so maybe I just need to be patient, and work quietly and with joy. :)
OK, break time is over! Cheers for the long weekend!